The most beautifull moments of my life were not the days i was so happy but rather the days i had to stay awake during the night with the thoughts. The days i cried so loud thinking i couldnt breathe again were the moments i got up with much strength like never before. That day when i wa so confused and did not know the best way to go turned out to be the best day of my life. The peace in the chaos was the best gift i ever received. It made me stronger and beautiful yet broken.